The Good and the Bad

Ok. the bad stuff first.
sis came home... parked the car and toppled my beloved Vespa!
SUPER sian but surprisingly not angry.
JUST KNN sian lor.
wtf man. taking time off to go repair it is one thing. being left without transport is another BIG THING. fuck manz
and the biggest sian thing is of course the fact that it's dented and severly scratched!
*sobs* it's no longer chio!
*sulks* luckily hong kong is coming up wed and i get to go shop!

the good stuff.
sat was the day my 2 best friends (of 12 years) got married after 12 years of paktok-ing.
well. actually they got married last year (ROM) but the banquet thing was on sat.
friday was out for some male bonding with the groom.
woke up feeling shitty cos we slept at 4 plus and had to be up by 6.
went through the whole running from house to house and tea ceremony with them (and of course the "torture" of having to get the bride first.)
i shall just skip all of the narration about what happened etc.
even though I am generally not the type and hate being the type, i shall allow myself to be truly sentiment here.
you see, seeing the two of them "complete the course" so to speak makes my teary eyed at a point in time yesterday. I guess maybe this is how it feels to be geniunely happy for somebody else? it's an undescribeable feeling of happiness - not the kind of happiness one feels for oneself say when u achieved a goal for yourself. it's a quiet but exceedingly overwhelming and selfless feeling of joy.
being deeply involved with the preparations (and the 12 years they went thru) really meant something to me. even though we are in our adulthood, it still feels like we were back in secondary school, doing and saying all those nonsense things that made life so carefree and enjoyable. and yet behind all these nonsense lies a friendship and bond that is unreplicable.
using more words would not be able to further describe or make clearer the feeling of happiness that ran through me yesterday.
"many happy returns, buggers"

Rally On

today i attended a rally held in ang mo kio
wasn;t expecting much to say the truth
but i was rather impressed by the whole thing.
and swayed to a certain extent i must admit
they spoke well. really well. eloquent speeches.
good choice of words and pauses.
and what impressed me most?
its a toss up between the retorts (skilly crafted) and the spins on the words of their opponents
oh yes. and the bread and butter issues
and yes. that is what politics is about
hearing it struck a chord somewhere
maybe it's cos of the work i do.
somehow. i found it easy to identify with some of things they pointed out
maybe it's cos because of the work we do, we already know the flaws
at first i felt there was a disjoint between how i felt and how i think at work
then i realise. there is no disjoint
its merely cos i have not come across a paper i had to write that is against my conscience
or rather i did not come across a paper that requires me battle with heart over mind.
then again. if it did come my way and if i were told to write it in a certain manner, i probably wont have accepted the work.
so polling day is coming.
let's see if 6 May will go down in Singapore's history as a day to be remembered.

Game on

been blogging last frequently cos frankly i have no idea what to blog about
nothing's happening at the workplace cos well. no one's around
agnes' last day was last friday.
man. one last person to talk to in office liao.
pain.
been spending time with the pers people playing board games
woohoo
settlers of catan. looks simple but it requires skills man.
and apparently we havn't been playing by the rules completely.
just read up on MORE rules.
wah zan.
headache.
at the rate we are going. we can never graduate to the expansion set.
the game of world domination and making money from properties and trains stations (damn you justin!! no more train stations for you) was good too. haha. playing at the void deck near law's place was something i have never done before. haha.
we are on the road to old men hood. imagine a bunch of ah-peks playing board games on the void deck - it's no longer chess!!
happy May Day people.

Workout

despite attempts at loading my schedule and calendar with outings, events, work etc,
i am still finding myself idling. maybe i should be using that idle time to tidy my room, tie up loose ends with the financial advisor, catching up on my readings. but fuck no. i have to spend it stoning.
really. i kid you not. i am plain lazy damn it. must have caught it by looking at 2 pussies lying around. and for you dirty minds out there, I am referring to my 2 cats! they are slightly on the obese side and man can they sleep and stone.
and I think I have been spending too much time on dota too! been sleeping late cos of the game.
but it's the satisfaction of killing and maybe getting killed but ya - gang bangs are really satisfying.
wicked sick!!
there is perhaps some light at the end of the tunnel.
just signed up with planet fitness to get my exercise regime going. so ya man. if i have time after work, i shall hit the gym and work out. been a little weak this year and i suspect it's due to the lack of intense exercising. 2.4k runs, situps and dips at the exercise corners can only bring me so far.
so what's next? signing up for drum classes.

Seeing what things are

dun you think sometimes we see things more than what it should be?
or see things as the way we wish them to be?
sometimes it attacks me so subconsciously i practically reel at moment of realising
that i am doing it.
it's disgusting that all i say
*pui*

on a separate note. stress and work makes me high
call me a geek of a workaholic but it feels good to be overworked sometimes
of course it would be even better if you are rewarded for a job well done but that's just an extra bonus (monetary bonus...ooohhhhhh) - that is if your boss fights for ya.
so ya. i like the adrenaline of deadlines to meet and how the mind sharpens itself to Terry Pratchett's Death God's Scythe degree in order to handle the challenge.
so bite me.
i just like my life to be an endless rush of events, happenings, sad, good, bad, wrenching
whatever.
so long i am not wasting any minute of it (sleeping doesn't count - cos sleeping is goooooddd) I am happy
no philosophy on whether what we are doing actually matters cos it does - it doesnt matter to me. you do something you learn. end of it.
i will devour experiences like a swarm of locust descending upon a mazie field.
bzzzzzzz

Below the Belt

was chatting to me fren and it went something like this

fren: hey, what u doing in office still?
me: thinking lor
fren: thinking of what
me: thinking of work lah. what else
fren: orh. i thot u thinking about your bond.

O_O!!!!!

ass!!!!

Big Time Sadness

Dunno why I am suddenly so sad. sulk sulk sulk.
the lao chio replied with a negative answer
nope
she doesn't have a job for me now.
but being nice she did say that there was a possible opening in Sept.
Sept!!! that's damn far man.
and it's only a possible opening.
oh crap man.
so should I wait for it or go secure a job someone else.
and in any case, she would probably interview alot more candidates for that possible vacancy
so means it's not like the job is mine for sure.
oh damn damn damn.
couldn't hit the home run.
haiz